syukur

Alifah and I were arranging clean cloths. Suddenly, Alifah said, “I am bored!”

“Alifah, do you know that it is a sign of not being grateful (syukor) to Allah?” Umi who coincidently appeared from the kitchen stated the statement.

Alifah and I looked at each other. I am shock. I never think that way before. But, I agree with Umi and admitted that she was correct.

I added, “Yes, because every moment is actually a gift from Him. So, regardless whether we are joyful or otherwise, we must appreciate the event that we are in.”

Later, I keep thinking about the connection between the feeling of uninterested and thankful. I manage to lay down some reflections in cases of being tired of something.

1)       I prayed to become a person who is full with patience, so this is one of the processes that I have to go through or the value that I have to pay in instilling this virtue in my sole.

2)      Feeling bored is a chance to multiply the istighfar; asking forgiving from Allah who loves to forgive His servants. It is a gentle reminder from Him to remember Him.

3)       To enable us be more creative. It helps us to increase our creativity in coping with the situation.

4)      Any other ideas? Please don’t hesitate to share. Thank you very much.

balik raya, sedihnye

Hello, yong, when your holiday starts?

Today is the last day for classes, umi. Why?

Eh, so will you come home today la?

Eh, nope. I called you last week and asked your permission to stay in the campus for some days to celebrate the last ten days of Ramadan. You said okay kan umi.

No. no. I thought your break starts on the 18th of September, next week…. Since you got early release, you should come home early. Too many works to be done la yong.

Ala…umi, I asked you since last week lagi…. You said okay… hmm, okay la. But, right now I have to complete and submit my assignment, so, maybe tomorrow la I will go home insyaAllah…


That was a portion of my conversations with my mum. Before receiving the call, I was very happy because my mum seems to really understand my ‘dream’ to focus and enrich my days with worships during the last ten days of Ramadan. To give opportunities to me for the first time I think. But, unfortunately, no. It did not happen. I was quite upset. What came to my mind was that, ‘umi doesn’t really pay attention to what I said. Supposedly, umi should take note all my suggestion and in case if there is any “objection”, umi should tell me earlier.’

Well, now, as I am typing this entry, my thought is quite reasonable and the previous inner speech is now gone. It’s because; I realize that she needed hands in doing preparation for Eid. I was the only girl available at the moment. The one to be at home and helping umi in doing all the ‘domestic businesses’. Besides, her off started on the 16th September. On the top of that, nothing had been done yet. I believe that, that was written for me. We plan but He decides.

In the future, it is suggested that in order not to miss the special ten day of Ramadan, at least 70% of the preparation of Eid should be done before Ramadan itself comes. It is important in order to make ourselves free and available to enjoy our specific worships during the month of blessings. So, before Ramadan comes, all of my siblings should balik rumah and do the preparation.

Hmmm, but, this idea might be interesting upon me myself due to the environment of Ramadan available in the IIUM. How about my other family members? I now become conscious that I have a duty to share the knowledge and educate all of them in order to have a new outlook of Ramadan. It is not for the purpose of information but to really implement the spirit into reality.

But, HOW????

ziarah ramadan

semalam, 5/9/2009, alhamdulillah beberapa orang kenalan dan saya telah diizinkan melawat sebuah keluarga. keluarga ini boleh dikatatan sebuah keluarga yang besar juga la....

Ayah

pergi keluar 40 hari (tabliqh), pengumpul barang2 kitar semula

ibu

sabar orangnya. sentiasa mengendung anak bungsu sepanjang kami di sana

sham

anak sulung, sedang tidur semasa kami datang melawat. umurnya x silap 15 tahun

atul

kakak, anak ke-dua. sudah tidak menyambung pelajaran. membantu ibu di rumah

nisa

calon UPSR. selasa ini insyaAllah. sebelumnya duduk bersama nenek, baru pulang duduk bersama keluarga setelah neneknya pulang ke Rahmatullah

zulaikah

suka buat soduku. kebetual kami ada bawa 1 kompilasi soduku

aminah

pemalu betul orangnya. susah nak dengar suaranya. saya bersamanya bermain-main huruf, menulis dan melukis.

aisyah

ceria. sangat menggembirakan hati kami. telatahnya memikat hati

hadhmi

nakal tapi bijak orangnya.

iman

baby yang baik. x banyak ragam. baru 4 bulan.