langkah ku

aku on9 dan tiba2,


"salam kak, dah study CP?"
"salam alaik, belum, haha"
"saya x study satu ape pun, frust. saya minta clash dan saya frust. dia x marah saya pun. tapi saya sedih sebab dia sangt frust. kak, saya x pergi pun interview PTD tadi"
"sabar, be strong dan banyk berdoa. insyaAllah akan diganti dengan yg lebih baik"
"aha, saya kene kuat, saya doa jodoh kami akan bersama jua"
"insyaAllah, ada jodoh x kemana. awak kene bagi clarification supaya dia faham dan dia akan kuat"


haha, i asked her to be strong to clarify all matters...but me myself, keep isolating avoiding and refusing to meet this one person who i claimed to hurt my heart..no attempt to seek for any clarification...what a pity poor asma'.


i just have to reflect and learn from all things that are around me...


1) the recent movies that i watch; love happens and the blind side... they are full of values that can motivate asma' to move forward and be a better person. to forget and forgive. to do good to other. ect.
2) the last page of quran that you recite today- alhujurat: 5-11. the ayah really reflect your situation. one of them, Allah says "sesungguhnya arg2 mukmin itu bersaudara, krn itu damaikanlah antara kedua saudaramu (yg berselisih) dan bartakwalah kpd Allah agar kamu mendapat rahmat". i need His rahmah. the person need that too. so, if we remain in this situation, the rahmah will be noway near us...astagfirllah..
3) advices from two friends; yong, you are an adult. stop being like a small child. be rational....yong, you are acted unjust by punishing both yourself and that person this way, this is okay if you want to avoid that person but please, stop being like this. move on.
4) the chatting it self, i asked other to be strong so, i should be strong too...


we can love loves but it should be reasonable, otherwise, the sufferings is greater that the normal hurt. haha. take care to all us and you, the person who i loved very much.

hari-hari ku

1)
teruknya kene 'dump' 
tido mcm tak nak bangun2
x nak jumpe sape2
berkurung
no communication
serious x kuat
hahaha


diizinkan, a good friend of mine tagged me in his note;
nama2 yg tidak akan dia dilupakan
it includes; orang yg pernah melukakan hati ect
haha, kalau aku, mesti aku x nak include name org yg pernah melukakan hati dalam list org yg tidak akan dilupakan..hahaha
cruel? revenge?
x elok sungguh...
smoga semuanya ok dgn segera..
lupakan dan just go on 


2)
rasa macam kene hempap batu atas kepala bila satu isu yg x nak dibincangkan dibangkitkan jua...
don't know how and what to respond
people see it is wrong but in fact, they just do not know
yes they have no idea what soever, but they come to that conclusion because it is what they saw
forgive me. i am sorry 
please, just stop questioning...
there is some things that cannot be shared.. yet
when the time comes, insyaAllah us all will know the truth


3)
a sister told me
"kak, kalau rasa 'something', try to read the stories of sahabah, insyaAllah ada banyak yg akk akan dapat."
i did
and masyaAllah, it is really helpful
the recent one, i read about abu ubaidah al-jarrah
he is an honest person, the prophet appointed him to be a judge in a village of an Christian society (well, the villagers asked the Prophet to send someone who can rule accordance to the principles of just and fairness) and even umar mentioned him as 'the man who is demanded by Islam' in one of his conversations with other sahabat.. last but not least, he killed his beloved father during a war between hisbul-Allah and hisbul-thaqhut (an ayah was revelled in consequence to that event) and, not forgetting, he lost his tooth because he used them to break the iron chain that was fixed to the Prophet in one of the wars...these stories really touched my heart.. he is a very truthful man and he sacrificed everything for Islam (i love my family and tooth very much-two important things in my life; obsess hahah)
so, prepare our iman well to answer any call that requires us to respond, in the name of Islam....


the interest of islam is always outweighed our personal interests, problems ect...

alhamdullih...

ummudhirar: hatimu chat? mindamu chat? ruhmu chat? ukhuwwahmu chat? badabmu chat?

coklat_pepper47: sebenarnya x really..

coklat_pepper47: tapi x nak fikir

coklat_pepper47: kan akk cakap, setiap detik itu tarbiyah

coklat_pepper47: so, ana try

ummudhirar: ya benar itu bu'

ummudhirar: dan tatkal kita mengharungi sgl itu, Allah sentiasa bersama kita ...

coklat_pepper47: mungkin ana rasa susah dan payah, tu la yg ana ckp x sihat..teruk kan..

coklat_pepper47: tapi, ok je insyaAllah

 

ummudhirar: kalau tak susah dan payah...macam mana nak tahu diri ini gagah, cekal dan sabar...itu juga suatu tarbiyah...

ummudhirar: smg kamu cekal dan ceria senantiasa...

coklat_pepper47: hmmm, benar2..kak, tadi kawan ana tegur, cakap ana dah lain, x ceria...

coklat_pepper47: akk rasa macam mana...

ummudhirar: adikku, kekallah mekar dan ceria serta setia pd perjuangan seperti saat ku mulai kenali kalian dan sehingga kini......luv luv luv u all alwaysss......my precious and beloved adik...

antum la permata hati kak, suatu ketika dulu di UIA....

 

coklat_pepper47: baik lah...akan diusahakan..

petikan masa YM yg leh dikongsi bersama.... some points to be reflected;

 

1) people around us are the most precious gifts that HE sent, in helping us for shaping ourselves to be a new better person with good characters. so, love them and thanks to ALLAH for sending them..

2) every moment should be appreciated as it is a tarbiyah.. a proses which was specially designed and made for ourselves and it suits every person..really.. though we might hate it so much! just face it and be creative in responding to such unpleasant situations...haha ( please asma' ku syg,  believes it-surely you can!) 

3) QUESTION: do we have adik2 permata hati yg bisa meneruskan langkah2 di bumi kecil uia ini...penyambung rantaian berharga.. 

Beanmmi's- good...

some of asma' ul-husna:

as-sabur- the patience one

as-salam- the source of peace

al-matin- the firm

al-basit- the reliever 

al-nafq'- the creator of good

ada DIA

Ribut datang memperkosa Sesak nyawa dalam jiwa Bila roti kering Jalan pulang Yang kau fikirkan Habis dilarikan Habis dilarikan mergastua Dalam kecewa Dihimpit rasa Lapar dan dahaga Sajian susu ikan merah Suara pengalaman Mendamaikan Tanji gelora yang sempat singgah Kau hilang pertimbangan untuk pastikan Apakah kau sedar atau dilamun khayalan Dalam hutan Ada taman Dan dalam taman Ada puterinya Dalam baju Ada cinta Dan dalam cinta Ada segala-galanya Dalam awan Ada hujan Dan dalam hujan Ada lautan Dalam aku Ada dia Dan dalam dia Ada kita ada semua by m.nasir

she is back!

i cant't imagine the feeling
when she is sitting next to me
the person that i know before
the same person who i love very much
and i care 
my hope and my light..


this is beautiful
great and Alhamdulillah..


Allah, it was hurting
bleeding inside me
no smiles and laughs
and if it was there 
it was a fake
not real
astagfirAllah


Allah, this journey is not pleasant
there are fires burning in many ways
there are even some extremely cold situations
rare to be moderate
balance and excellent


are those things meaningful?
don't know..
it is up to us, myself 
to really learn 


be strong as it will never be an easy decision
many things to be sacrificed
but keep praying so that an adorable ending is waiting for us ahead
ameen.......

mysterious

she is complicated,so unpredictable


and rarely reveals herself


she moves swiftly


and waits for no one


she goes through the cycle


not knowing what to expect


she tries never to give up


even when things look futile


she accepts defeat


but never stays down


she is brought to her knees

but slowly rises up


she has strong shoulders


to bear the joys and sorrows


her mysterious eyes mirror


her depths of emotions


she has no road map


to give her direction


her heart is so fragile


she often feels so alone


there are innumerable moments


when she feels so alive


she seems immortal


but she does have an end


she is life


by Rabia Abubakar
published by The Star 3/3/10

amanah cinta

the companions love the prophet S.A.W very much. wholeheartedly.. how about us? me myself?...

Bilal for example, he stopped performing azan after the Prophet passed away..he was very sad because previously, after he make azan, the Prophet will lead the jamaah prayer...so, the situation changed after the Prophet left this world...it was different as after he called the Muslimin to perform the solah, there was no Muhammad S.A.W...

hmm, how about my/our love towards the Prophet? He loves us very much..........so, be strong till we died..
i just want to share a good song will all of you..may it benefit all of us.........lovesssssssssss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBFkokotZDA